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A summary song for a dark season

When holding your breath is safer than breathing

When letting go is braver than keeping

When innocent words turn to lies

And you can't hide by closing your eyes

When the pain is all that they offer

Like the kiss from the lips of a monster

You know the famine so well, but never met the feast

When home is the belly of a beast

The ocean is wild and over your head

And the boat beneath you is sinking

Don't need room for your bags, hope is all that you have

So say the Lord's Prayer twice, hold your babies tight

Surely someone will reach out a hand

And show you a safe place to land.

From A Safe Place to Land, Sara Bareilles


Maybe future me will look back and say aiyo past L, how come so emo?

Dear Future L: most of it warn't fit for publication.

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