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Being looked in the eye


We've met half a dozen times
I know your name, I know you don't know mine
But I won't hold that against you
You come here every Friday night
I take your order and try to be polite
And hide what I've been going through

If you looked me right in the eye
Would you see the pain deep inside
Would you take the time to
Tell me what I need to hear
Tell me that I'm not forgotten
Show me there's a God
Who can be more than all I've ever wanted
'Cause right now I need a little hope
I need to know that I'm not alone
Maybe God is calling you tonight
To tell me something that might save my life
- Sidewalk Prophets, Save My Life
The older I get, the more thankful I am to have people in my life who can look me in the eye, and not be afraid of what they might see.

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